Is it test in my Life ？

有的时候，真的很生气！试下想我的父亲是赚钱不多的人士，但是他的姐姐总是介绍他买一些无关痛痒的产品。我爸可以想也不想就买！我很多时候都不敢向爸要求太多，省吃省用省穿，每天的生活就是省省省！但是我爸真是太不会计较，尤其对自己的兄弟姐妹，简直就是有求必应的好弟弟@好哥哥！但是对待我们就真的什么都不是！好像没有需要的一群，没有关心我们生活一切！当我得到好成绩的时候，不会赞美一句，从来没有鼓励的话语！这就是考验吧！哈哈！

就这样，我有时候过得很苦，很挣扎！我真的不问我爸能够给我什么，因为我也给不了他什么！

有时失望！有时甚至觉得自己很绝望了！为何这样的！为何会那样！没办法，这就是我的生活！

Sometime really feel guitly cos i still nobody now ! My life like shit ! My dad like rich man but he is poor ! I felt tired to explain to him and he always told me that i am the eldest so i need to take care about everything, i really tired adi !

Nobody can understand me! 上帝， My Lord , can you give me a signal that i can solve my situations! No money to continue my life , i try my hard to get what i want but still lost it ! That is my destiny given by god !

Life make me become crazy !!! I really want to be a good son. And i do it so ! Still din get my 80% ! My result in my life just suck... My love life's result just like suckssss..... My college's exam paper result also suckssss.....

I know that it is give me a ways to be my good person ! God train me ! God give the best to me ! But my family still dun understand what i want to be ! So so life ... ...